Thursday, April 28, 2011
Gee Mom maybe your arranged marriage will work... Maybe i will marry my ex -_-
#2 Today I learned....
That old ghosts will come back to haunt you....
I haven't seen my ex Jamal for 3 years now we haven't talked for the same. When we met we wanted to tie the knot but my mum said that he was the last person on earth she's even think of allowing me to marry. Jamal and I eventually broke up. My love life is very confusing, I've always been one of the aching kind. Now I overheard my mom saying that she wishes for Jamal and I to marry and its better for me to move to the middle east to raise my children as to not "make the mistake she made". What she does not understand is that I want to marry my dear sweet Joshua who I have been in love with for 5 years now (jamal was met in our breakup period) I don't like marriage but for those two I was wanting it.. now I'm stuck between three options:
1. Keep sticking up for Joshua even if my parents refused him because of his race
2. Marry Jamal
3. Be a single, empowered women for the rest of my days
With Joshua,he has an amazing British accent (he lives in britain) we are so compatible and with him I know we will have a partnership marriage where he will respect me and not use double standard but sometimes I feel like he only wants me because I am just "there" ( I say "I think about you ALWAYS, he says "I think about you OFTEN")
With Jamal he is totally arab washed and will be a dominating man not to mention he's 26 while I'm 19 (7 years apart). He has the best bum in the world and the body of a greek god. His pouty lips and puppy dog brown eyes used to drive me crazy! oh my gosh his back his sexyy! His gorgeous smile (he's missing 2 teeth/molars ahahahaha) and goofy laugh would drive me insane with desire but we are from two different worlds... And he's not educated (he dropped out in grade 5) I hate his family and his country and the way he was brought up. Double standard is his middle name..
But sometimes I wish to be alone I like being in the company of myself I don't need to be in a relationship I've tried but its awkward right now in my head it's either I am with Joshua as my life partner or no one at all! My parents need to understand that I am a grown women who can make her own decisions-especially ones as big as this.. This situation will not affect me now because I'm in school and still not old enough to officially be "put on the market" for arranged marriage but it will catch up with me in a year or so.. Why can't I have a normal life!??!
I miss Joshua...
My advice to you.... Do what your heart feel is absolutely right don't let others influence your decisions such as race, religion etc. And do whatever you can to be happy. That's my daily advice to you blog readers goodnight and take care!
Your ball of confusion,
Susanne Dey
(I'm craving a big fat gooey extra cheese greasy pizza with peanut butter chocolate
Ice cream, crab sushi, root beer, mango bubble tea, and marshmallows)
That old ghosts will come back to haunt you....
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| Picture of the day skipped class and went to the lake. |
I haven't seen my ex Jamal for 3 years now we haven't talked for the same. When we met we wanted to tie the knot but my mum said that he was the last person on earth she's even think of allowing me to marry. Jamal and I eventually broke up. My love life is very confusing, I've always been one of the aching kind. Now I overheard my mom saying that she wishes for Jamal and I to marry and its better for me to move to the middle east to raise my children as to not "make the mistake she made". What she does not understand is that I want to marry my dear sweet Joshua who I have been in love with for 5 years now (jamal was met in our breakup period) I don't like marriage but for those two I was wanting it.. now I'm stuck between three options:
1. Keep sticking up for Joshua even if my parents refused him because of his race
2. Marry Jamal
3. Be a single, empowered women for the rest of my days
With Joshua,he has an amazing British accent (he lives in britain) we are so compatible and with him I know we will have a partnership marriage where he will respect me and not use double standard but sometimes I feel like he only wants me because I am just "there" ( I say "I think about you ALWAYS, he says "I think about you OFTEN")
With Jamal he is totally arab washed and will be a dominating man not to mention he's 26 while I'm 19 (7 years apart). He has the best bum in the world and the body of a greek god. His pouty lips and puppy dog brown eyes used to drive me crazy! oh my gosh his back his sexyy! His gorgeous smile (he's missing 2 teeth/molars ahahahaha) and goofy laugh would drive me insane with desire but we are from two different worlds... And he's not educated (he dropped out in grade 5) I hate his family and his country and the way he was brought up. Double standard is his middle name..
But sometimes I wish to be alone I like being in the company of myself I don't need to be in a relationship I've tried but its awkward right now in my head it's either I am with Joshua as my life partner or no one at all! My parents need to understand that I am a grown women who can make her own decisions-especially ones as big as this.. This situation will not affect me now because I'm in school and still not old enough to officially be "put on the market" for arranged marriage but it will catch up with me in a year or so.. Why can't I have a normal life!??!
I miss Joshua...
My advice to you.... Do what your heart feel is absolutely right don't let others influence your decisions such as race, religion etc. And do whatever you can to be happy. That's my daily advice to you blog readers goodnight and take care!
Your ball of confusion,
Susanne Dey
(I'm craving a big fat gooey extra cheese greasy pizza with peanut butter chocolate
Ice cream, crab sushi, root beer, mango bubble tea, and marshmallows)
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